Spring Resolutions 2010

I've never been one for New Year's Resolutions, but I have never said that New Season's Resolutions were a bad idea, did I? Now, these aren't resolutions like lose weight or try to dress better. These resolutions are not external, they're internal. Well here are my New Season's Resolutions of Spring 2010:

1. I will write more. I will go back to the one thing that I love doing for me. I feel like I have been losing bits of my sanity lately and just last night when I sat up forgoing sleep just to get out another sentence or paragraph I felt like I accomplished something.

2. I will read more. I have always loved reading and I completely agree with the theory that to be a good writer one must read a lot. I am going to return to the days when I could curl up on the couch and finish a 35o page book in one sitting just because I can.

3. I will try to become less easily frustrated. I am guilty of becoming so frustrated that I just give up and never look back at what made me frustrated. I have at least ten stories that I started this year alone that have been abandoned due to frustration that can vouch for that.

4. I will try to focus more on the positive and less on the negative. I have a tendency to be a very negative person when I feel like it, or just don't feel like putting the effort into being positive. Negative energy just breeds more negative energy however and I will no longer have room for negativity in my life.

5. I will not let other's influence me. I will not longer allow someone's bad day to influence how I feel. If someone feels the need to bring me down I will simply walk away from the situation or person so that they cannot change how I feel.

Thank You Sesame Street

Thank you Sesame Street for reminding me just how gosh darn cute

Jake Gyllenhaal is.

How Do I Get Myself Sucked Into These Shows?

-Lila...You are gonna impress everybody.

-You say that, as if...

-Oh, Lila, no. The only thing I want you to do now is remember me for who I am here. Someone with a bit of talent, potential. Don't want you to remember who I'm gonna become. Cause...Cause this guy standing in front of you is not even worthy of your friendship. He's not even in the same league.

-Lila & Owen, Nearly Famous

Trying Numbness Instead of Pain

I adore this song and no, not just because of the obvious (although, come on,

how amazing does he sound in this song?!). On a serious note though, how

unfair is it that Canadian Idol has actual talent while he get stuck with like

Taylor Hicks and Danny Gokey?

"It's about this girl who's half sushi..."

Saw "Jennifer's Body". Still not sure if I liked it because it was campy or was lukewarm on it because it never quite figured out if it was horror or comedy. One thing I do know:

He completely stole the show. Kyle Gallner as the cute-goth/emo-boy-next-door (my favorite type of boy) Colin Gray. The car scene is probably one of the best scenes in the movie. Seeing him belt out the most anti-goth/emo song ever (in a non-ironic way) is beyond adorable.

I hate how I find myself to be at my most creative whenever I should be working on something else. Like right now, I should be working on my analysis of the heroic attributes in Beowulf and "Dream of the Rood" but instead find myself working on other writing that will most certainly get me nowhere in life. Unlike college papers, which are supposed to get me good grades and then a degree which then is supposed to result in a career.

But I would rather spend my time writing what I like to write. Stuff that I know will never be read but that I love to write about, because like my favorite author's novels and good music, writing keeps me sane. It helps me get out everything I feel in a way that I find acceptable, since I hate being over emotional. Because I can take something I'm feeling and make a character feel that way but in situation completely unlike my own, a unique event in time, a different place, a place I'd rather be, a place I never want to go, a character I can't relate to beyond a single emotion, a character that is more me than I'd like to admit...It's all just so freeing.

"Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia."

-E.L. Doctorow

It's Thursday!

I have to write a small essay on the rolesof women in Beowulf using ten examples.  Problem is, I can only name four women characters in Beowulf and two are evil and the other two are peacekeepers, so I'm a little bit torn.  I am determined to get it done soon though. Then I have to work on a small cultural anthropology essay on my culture, only problem is, I don't exactly have a culture that is definable.

Despite the paper problems I am uber excited!  Tonight is TVD night! Ian Somerhalder playing a vampire, awesometastical!